as a continuation of my last post about watching the video for 'Fight Club', yeah, i watched it, and yeah, i can see why people 'talked' about it like it was a piece of work, as opposed to being just a load of balls. but it didn't do anything for me, i mean, what's the need for all the violence? People? eh? and that thing where he finds out he has a split personality - hasn't that been done before? i'd like to see Panic Room, but i get the feeling that its just going to be another one of those films, that sounds good, but, like, isn't, y'know that i mean?

i haven't been up to anything this week, in fact yesterday i stayed the whole day in my flat, and almost drove myself insane. if you want some general advice from me about life, it would be: make friends. That would be good, don't be like me, be good, never judge people or think bad things about them, because they can see it, they really can.

and what's the latest with gus the technician? well, for the past few months he had been given an assignment to isolate some pure THC and other cannabinoid stuff from this block of resin he'd been given, for this company. i cannot honestly say i know what he's been up to during all this time, but it does look like he pretty much left it all until the last minute, as the 'deadline' was supposed to be last tuesday. so he'd been working on getting the stuff out almost solidly over the last week, but it looks like he'd had so many problems with all the equipment, that he's worked himself ill because he didn't think he'd be able to meet the deadline. and he didn't, actually. He came in late on tuesday, and was sent home, because apparently he looked terrible, and he hasn't been back since. do i feel sorry for him? yes, a bit. but then i can't understand why he couldn't do it... it doesn't sound terribly difficult, and if he couldn't do it he should have told the people straight out that there was a problem. Plus he just kept putting it off and putting it off. And now he's probably feeling suicidal because he thinks he's a huge failure, plus my rejection on top of it all. but people like that... what can you do really? i used to chat to him alot, and i'm sure i must have cheered him up on many occassions, but i can't now, knowing how he feels about me. heartless cow. no wonder i don't have any friends.

and the ironic thing is, i'm pretty much totally alone, all this weekend. aren't people funny things? i think i might have to go home and start calling people, make more of an effort in making friends.

well, i have been doing one thing this week, i've been writing a paper, which i've been a little dubious about, but it is almost near completion. its not perfect, not by my standards, i feel that some of the data is a little hokey, but i've told it as honestly as i could, and to the best of my abilities, and hopefully i can send it off by the end of the month.